Well here it is…Why did I do what I did…well it is easy… The over
whelming guilt that I have for what I put my family through, and for
not being a good friend, and for the simple fact that I am not a strong
person like you all think that I am. Or maybe it’s the lies and the
head games that fuck me up. I don’t do it to others why do they do it
to me. Nothing good is going to come of me or my life. I have something
to say for everyone:
Amanda- I thought we would be together forever… I guess things don’t always work out like they are meant to. I tried to move on and I think I did for a little, but I just don’t want to deal with this any more. You would know what the hell I was talking about if you just talked to me like you said you would and be my friend. That’s all I was asking for. All I wanted from you was for you to be in my life as my friend. I love you with all my heart and soul. I’ll miss you.
Neil- I’m not to sure what to say to you, but all I know is that you have to stay out of trouble. I love you.
C.j.- You’re a smart kid… Don’t do stupid things. Your way too young to through your life away. Your better than that. You could do so much sweetheart. I love you.
Zack- Your such a good person. I’m sorry that I wronged you the way I did, but you’re an even better person for forgiving me. I love you.
Angie- Don’t be so sad all the time… you have got it really good, don’t ever give that up. I love you.
Jayme- You don’t always mess up. Your too hard on yourself. Your such a great person. I love you.
Barry- You and Jayme are meant to be together. Don’t ever give up. You’ll always be my big brother. I love you.
Monica- You’re a sweet girl. You’ll find the right girl. You’re a great person and that’s why I love you.
Jacob- Stop smoking pot. I love you
Jake- Thank you for being there.
Paul- Your going to be 21... Act it. Your stressing yourself out. Do what makes you happy more often. And I’m sorry that you never got to know the real me. I’ll miss you.
Cassi and Justin- You guys were the best of friends and I didn’t know that till it was too late. I love you guys so much. Don’t ever lose touch even if it is a phone call a month.
Heather- Never give up… I know that you’re a stronger person that you know… I can see it in you. I love you like a sister.
To my family that was there for me. You know who you are. I love you all dearly and I’m so sorry but now there is no more worrying about me. You guys are great. I just could not get a handle on any thing.
To my family who was not there. So be it. I hope that you’ll all learn to be closer to the ones you love because you never know when the are going to be gone.
You can all think I’m crazy, no pun intended, but Panda Marie I love you be good live long.
And I would like to mention people who have had influence in my life but I don’t know what to say to them- Bretney, Alli, Kendall, Keven, Mr.Mondonza, Ashley, Nathan, Kelly, Kristy, Coko, Miggz, Steve
Why did I put this here on the web… to make at least one person think… think about your friends… think about your family… talk more… love each other more… be yourself… be there for the special ones more… follow your heart… and I hope that everyone I mentioned could at least say, that I have made an impacted on there lives as they did so to mine… Say what you mean, Mean what you say… live life to the fullest…
Amanda- I thought we would be together forever… I guess things don’t always work out like they are meant to. I tried to move on and I think I did for a little, but I just don’t want to deal with this any more. You would know what the hell I was talking about if you just talked to me like you said you would and be my friend. That’s all I was asking for. All I wanted from you was for you to be in my life as my friend. I love you with all my heart and soul. I’ll miss you.
Neil- I’m not to sure what to say to you, but all I know is that you have to stay out of trouble. I love you.
C.j.- You’re a smart kid… Don’t do stupid things. Your way too young to through your life away. Your better than that. You could do so much sweetheart. I love you.
Zack- Your such a good person. I’m sorry that I wronged you the way I did, but you’re an even better person for forgiving me. I love you.
Angie- Don’t be so sad all the time… you have got it really good, don’t ever give that up. I love you.
Jayme- You don’t always mess up. Your too hard on yourself. Your such a great person. I love you.
Barry- You and Jayme are meant to be together. Don’t ever give up. You’ll always be my big brother. I love you.
Monica- You’re a sweet girl. You’ll find the right girl. You’re a great person and that’s why I love you.
Jacob- Stop smoking pot. I love you
Jake- Thank you for being there.
Paul- Your going to be 21... Act it. Your stressing yourself out. Do what makes you happy more often. And I’m sorry that you never got to know the real me. I’ll miss you.
Cassi and Justin- You guys were the best of friends and I didn’t know that till it was too late. I love you guys so much. Don’t ever lose touch even if it is a phone call a month.
Heather- Never give up… I know that you’re a stronger person that you know… I can see it in you. I love you like a sister.
To my family that was there for me. You know who you are. I love you all dearly and I’m so sorry but now there is no more worrying about me. You guys are great. I just could not get a handle on any thing.
To my family who was not there. So be it. I hope that you’ll all learn to be closer to the ones you love because you never know when the are going to be gone.
You can all think I’m crazy, no pun intended, but Panda Marie I love you be good live long.
And I would like to mention people who have had influence in my life but I don’t know what to say to them- Bretney, Alli, Kendall, Keven, Mr.Mondonza, Ashley, Nathan, Kelly, Kristy, Coko, Miggz, Steve
Why did I put this here on the web… to make at least one person think… think about your friends… think about your family… talk more… love each other more… be yourself… be there for the special ones more… follow your heart… and I hope that everyone I mentioned could at least say, that I have made an impacted on there lives as they did so to mine… Say what you mean, Mean what you say… live life to the fullest…
